Carolyn was not my primary teacher, Brugh was. But during Brugh's illness and passing, she became my next primary teacher. She had a down-to-earthness and accessibility Brugh didn't have and I found her easy to love.
When she left the Anahata women's group, I was shocked. It was many years later that I realized she gave me permission to do the same and for that I am grateful.
I regret I didn't try to reconnect with her this past year when I returned from Athens to LA. My focus is now on returning to Greece and for that reason I cannot attend her memorial at Asilomar.
Somehow I feel she's OK with all of this. She too was a free spirit and let her heart lead her. Our hearts have never been far apart, no matter where we travel.